Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Woah.
It's 12.05AM now.
Anyway, just want to update this almost deadish like blog.
It's been a long term.
Full of "skirmishes" with many people.
Full of broken friendships.
However, at the same time,
I found new friends.
It's a give-lose situation.
I lose one here, I win one there.
Life's complicated without people having to make it complicated for you.
I guess, I'm the odd one out.
I don't know what I should do now actually.
I know I should study.
But what do I want to achieve?
I don't know.
I'm quite lost actually.
I changed my look.
I don't know, but I suppose I need to change sometimes.
I get a little rigid at times.
I changed quite a lot.
Drifted away from primary and secondary school.
However, there are many things you still don't know about me.
And I can't say it OUT LOUD.
.___.
I'm just too cowardly to do that.
I don't have the guts to say it out here.
Perhaps I'm just too careful.
Is being impulsive the new me now?
Should I or should I not?
There are many ramifications behind some actions which I am about to take.
Someone, please talk me out of it.
Before I say something which I'd regret forever.
I probably wouldn't regret it,
but I would regret SAYING it.
Sianz.
I feel a little weird when people comment on it.
(Unwittingly.)
They can be quite insensitive.
I'm also quite confused with the people involved.
They are different at different ocassions.
Am I making the right choice?
*YAWN*
I feel sleepy now.
I probably should go to sleep,
but it's a long time since I had a dream.
(AKA I haven't had a super duper nice sleep for ages).
In fact, I incurred so much sleep debt
that I think it's kinda impossible to repay them in short periods of time.
I need to know my priorities.
I am mixing around with fire.
But am I going to be wood?
Or am I going to be the water?
I am super confused now.
I am not going to think about this.
And just Sleep.
**Probably will just finish this post in another post, or continue with this.*
Haha, I'm so ironic.
Jun Hoe's talking to me now.
So I'll just update this when he's daoing me.
Anyway, now's the time he's daoing me.
So life's complex enough already.
I don't know what my priorities should be now.
Can't be just studies and friends.
Something's missing from my life.
I just can't put it in place yet what that thing is.
Anyway, when I was at peer tutoring yesterday (or on Tuesday),
I saw Xue Ying and Leonard!
OMG.
So long never see Xue Ying liao.
Kinda miss my secondary four class.
*SOB*
Must have class outing soon!
Smile and be happy
'Cos life's too short to be sad!
Adios!
Shawn.
♥ angel&devil.
5/19/2010 10:48:00 PM
