Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Today's incident just proved the point that our friendship is far from infallible.
You know something?
The incident was just a trigger factor.
I'm petty.
I always take your phone and read your stuff.
So you've proven your point.
I am like that.
Not to mention you and your constant conversation with my enemy.
Thanks a lot.
Just what I needed.
You don't know how upset I was when I heard you say such things.
Don't blame anyone.
You did say that.
I know.
You see, the walls have ears.
Most importantly, the shoes have tongues.
I trusted you.
How was I to trust you when such a scenario arises?
Especially telling what I told you about him to him?
Not a smart move.
PS, he said that you said it was me who said it.
I did say it.
But must you tell him?
I don't like such actions.
Now I'm the 'Mr Bad-Guy'.
I almost teared because of this.
Because I wholeheartedly believed in you.
Because I was a sincere friend.
And this is how you repudiate your sincerity.
I thought we were really best friends.
This is merely a trigger point.
Noticed how our conversations become shorter?
And how it, in the end, became conversations of few words.
In class or on facebook or on msn.
Convenient, isn't it.
No need to accompany Shawn 'cos you have your own clique.
I feel abandoned.
It's like I'm only there when they are not.
It's like you only knew my presence when they are not around.
I feel hurt, you know?
I just don't show it.
Convenient excuse, isn't it?
To exclude me because someone in your clique doesn't like me.
Thanks a lot.
You don't even have little time to spare.
We don't even hang out during breaks.
'Cos you are always with them.
No time for me.
You know yesterday when I bade goodbye to you and your friend,
And your friend just ignored me totally,
And how you laughed as you walk,
I was really upset.
Upset that you can't even stand up for me.
Have I degenerated into nothing but a mere clown?
That's a comforting thought, I guess.
Where am I on your priority list?
Nowhere.
Remember the last time we went for lunch?
You weren't the one who invited me.
Have you even thought about me in the first place?
Just think about it.
I don't care whether 2 of your clique members not like me.
But you?
Serious?
I didn't anticipate that.
I didn't come into this school just to be a substitute to your other friends.
I came to this school to make real and sincere friends.
:(
I don't know how to talk to you now.
You are always with my enemies, or with your clique.
I've now officially been excluded out.
Even when people are evicted out of their home, they received warning letters.
You don't know how much this friendship mean to me.
Evidently a lot more than you.
Where's the respect for friends?
I'm really perplexed.
I know,and sincerely hoped that you have not been badmouthing me behind my back.
I trust you.
Now, apparently, I am the perpetrator for such fallacies.
Didn't you notice you distanced yourself away from me?
The days you talk to me are the times where your real friends aren't around.
I thought there was some progress yesterday.
But obviously, not.
You left immediately for your friends.
We need a time out.
You need to ask yourself: Am I your friend and where am I placed at?
I will reflect on this friendship as well.
(Part 1 of 3)
♥ angel&devil.
5/11/2010 02:51:00 PM
