Friday, May 21, 2010
I have a complex thinking system.That makes me confused.
And makes me confusing to understand too.
I'm not a passive person.
I don't wait for things to happen.
I create those things.
Anyway I'm getting a little confused.
You deleted me from facebook and msn and left me hanging there.
It was unfortunate that you didn't accept the friendship at that time.'Cos I was really looking forward to looking for people from primary school.
Like Joseph and Fabian.It would be gratifying.
Now it's really awkward.
I don't dare to approach you anymore.
Although I see you quite often around school.
You deleted me from msn for the fact that I was 'incorrigible'.
But then you said it was due to me saying something on the bus.
So what was it?I'm confused.
I still want the friendship though.
Just don't know if its time, and whether your anger has been quelled or not.
And I really hope that it has been.
I'm keeping the faith.I hope you will just throw the past away, and look forward to the future.
I'm just waiting for that day to arrive.
---
I sat at the library,
and comatosed for 1 hour.
Thinking and daydreaming.
Well, it was quite satisfying.
And relaxing.
Sorted out my thoughts.
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It has been a very interesting day today.
I don't really know what to expect.
Since yesterday when I knew people were badmouthing me.
Behind my back.
I didn't know who to trust already.
'Cos my friend from VJ who told me that told me that I made the wrong decision.
To tell my classmates about it.
She said I was too naive.
Easily trusting.
After her reasoning with me, I thought she made sense.
I don't know who will be there for me and who was there to look at my demise.
I don't know who is the good, and who is the evil.
:/
So I went to school,
trying to expect the unexpected.
Which of course didn't happen.
Today was nothing more than a cliche day.
Other than the fact that I spoke in a softer-than-usual voice.
In the morning.
Sore throat.
Anyway, I became less of an irritant in the morning.
And I managed to stay awake for most of the lessons.
Which was a new first.
Since I'm falling asleep in some lessons now.
:/
Anyway, Mrs Pow's sarcasm has reached a new high.
She's was like "Luckily, back at home in Singapore"
Then she started making sampan rowing actions.
Haha.
GP lesson's fun now.
Enjoyable.
But except for the AQ parts though.
Boring, boring and nothing but sheer boredom.
PW's GPP's approved!
This means there's more work to be done.
:O.
And Maths lecture - Well, don't get me started on it.
It was kinda boring.
The lecture theatre is very unconducive.
Can't absorb anything,
and my eyes start to open and close in a regular fashion.
Haha.
Really really bored during Maths.
(And econs!)
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ISP has officially became the innest thing in my class now.
Everyone's checking their marks.
And mine was kinda...
okay?
EEBBA.
GP.
Horrendously Horrendous.
Well, considering that I got a 20/50 for my compre test, my essay really pulled me up. :)
(Although not by a lot. Haha -> Better than being pulled down.)
Maths.
Just got back my lecture test marks and am quite happy with it.
18/26.
^^
Pulled my dismal marks out of the doldrums.
(Hopefully will get out of the "awesome" E region.)
Econs, History and CSE.
Not bad, but my essay writing skills sucks.
Time to go intensive at those areas!
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And I just learned something.
To have true friends are important.
True friends.
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So my conclusion is.
Study for Block Test!
(But enjoy my germany trip first!)
Savour every moment of life,
and enjoy every minute of it!
Auf Wiedersehen!
Shawn.
♥ angel&devil.
5/21/2010 07:26:00 PM
