Thursday, May 27, 2010

PEEK A BOO!
I'm running out of ideas of what to write.
Then something along the way came!
4-2'2009 BBQ on Friday!
(:
Met Hang Siang at his house and went to buy the BBQ Stuff.
And we got scammed can?
They say near Kembangan MRT Station.
I think need to walk 25 minutes then reach!
ZZZ.
Thankfully got transport :D.
I think photos does better talking then me.
View my pictures on FB!
(:

Fencing on Saturday.
Lost to senior ><
But won the rest (:
Finally know how to use my height advantage.
And learnt a lot from senior.

Sianz!
So much things I want to write hear.
But Cannot write!!!!
><

'll update soon.
Sorry for the super short post!
Need to pack luggage~

Life's too short to be sad
So love every moment of it!

Adios!
Shawn.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Monday:
Sexuality Talk.
We were talking about teenage pregnancy.
Which doesn't apply to me (Wait! Not because I'm not a girl...*)
But I thought it was quite interesting.
Well, one of the questions did sort of link to me.
Sort of.
Anyway, the day just went on like it was a Monday.
Nothing much happened.
Besides me spasming out because no one could help me
For history tutorials.
Sianz.

Tuesday:
Nothing much happened too in school.
Mdm Ng is damn funny during Maths.
" Do you all understand this? "
Then she will add " Say you understand ".
^___^
And..
Seriously, I think the two hour break is too long.
Went to high school, came back,
Got scolded by Guo Xin for trying to do Math tutorial. .___.
(PS I'm doing so much work in order to get my mind of the complexities of my life.*)
Then went and chat with Wan Ting (And Brian) about everything under the sun in the cantten
And we literally just talked about everything.
And then, I think the two hour break is too short.
Haha.
Time flies when you have something to do.
GP was horrendous.
I cannot control the class at all.
:/
Although the class managed to settle down and start doing their AQ.
Some people just skipped the lesson.
I am very upset when I called and told them, and then the reason was
They were too lazy to come to the LT.
Sign of laziness.
Incorrigible.
It's hard to hammer in something when people are so unreceptive to help and advice.
Anyway, then another class came in.
And we got "evicted".
But most of the class managed to do everything within the time allocated.
(:
Then I suddenly thought about the scripts left in the LT.
Which I thought was left in the LT.
Then I was like Oh Shit. Must go back and take.
It's damn awkward to enter this classroom.*
And then when I entered the classroom,
Argh.
I acted like how Riz Low would have acted in front of some important guest.
Shit.
I couldn't find them, so I rushed out of the class.
(A little embarrassing.*)
Then Derrick just have to throw in the question.
"Did you thank the teacher?"
Shit.
I must be insane.
I ran back into the class and shouted "THANK YOU" to the teacher.
And I made a mockery out of myself in front of this particular class*.
.___.
Had to rush to peer tutoring immediately.
And 3 tutees were there.
:)
That's really good.
And we were the only group there.
(PS I know I'm dedicated. Haha. Just Joking. (:)
And I didn't disturb the boys with Chinese O Levels or Higher Chinese Mastery Reviews.
I just gave them a test.
Duration of 3.25 hours.
And then I went and meet my juniors from photography.
And we sat there and chatted for an hour.
While having lunch (under my treat ^^).
And knew things I didn't know about school!
Omg, I have a self mutilating junior now.
Gosh.
So many things happened when I left school.
Anyway, I really enjoyed their company.
Haha, and I felt so happy when they said I was a good senior.
(:
Then as I was walking back, I met Mr Liu Chang Yu!
(My ex Chinese Teacher who was surprised I got an A1 for higher Chinese. Haha.)
And we started talking.
And slowly we talked for 1 hour.
haha.
Sort of had lots of fun talking to him.
Criticising a particular Chinese teacher and stuff.
And I think I'm walking a path of praises.
He said I've became more matured.
XD.
Then stayed in Catholic High till 7.30 to mark the paper.
It was really a tiring day.

Wednesday:
I was super tired today.
I didn't have any energy left to do anything.
Just want to get back home and sleep.
Alas.
Time passed so slowly when you're in a state of unconsciousness.
And Shucks.
I don't feel really well.
But it's not serious though.
Still can go next Tuesday to Germany!
Brian's going there too but 2 days earlier.
(:
That's the thing to look forward to.
I hate the feeling that you are being used.
:/
And I happened to have that feeling today.
Due to some people and their actions.
Then after school, FENCING!
Awesome.
Something which I really really look forward to throughout the day.
Anyway, went for Arts Fest and really loved it.
----------------------------------------
*Nevermind if you don't get it.
Too complicated to explain currently.
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So, anyway, I feel very very queasy now.
Sianz.
I made a wrong mistake.

I want to live life the way life brings itself to me,
but it's the harshest part of life meeting up with me now.
I've just cut open a closed wound.
And I feel pain.
But not physical pain.
Mental pain.
Shit.
I made a wrong mistake.
A wrong move.
I'm regretting it already.

Shawn.

Sunday, May 23, 2010

The Purpose of Life.

I read this off http://www.everystudent.com/wires/greatest.html.

Thought it was very meaningful.

Consider a hammer.

It's designed to hit nails.

That's what it was created to do.

Now imagine that the hammer never gets used.

It just sits in the toolbox.

The hammer doesn't care.

But now imagine that same hammer with a soul, a self-consciousness.

Days and days go by with him remaining in the toolbox.

He feels funny inside, but he's not sure exactly why.

Something is missing, but he doesn't know what it is.

Then one day someone pulls him out of the toolbox and uses him to break some branches for the fireplace.

The hammer is exhilarated.

Being held, being wielded, hitting the branches -- the hammer loves it.

At the end of the day, though, he is still unfulfilled.

Hitting the branches was fun, but it wasn't enough.

Something is still missing.

In the days that follow, he's used often.

He reshapes a hubcap, blasts through some sheet rock, knocks a table leg back into place.

Still, he's left unfulfilled.

So he longs for more action.

He wants to be used as much as possible to knock things around, to break things, to blast things, to dent things.

He figures that he just hasn't had enough of these events to satisfy him.

More of the same, he believes, is the solution to his lack of fulfillment.

Then one day someone uses him on a nail.

Suddenly, the lights come on in his hammer soul.

He now understands what he was truly designed for.

He was meant to hit nails.

All the other things he hit pale in comparison.

Now he knows what his hammer soul was searching for all along.

Now, What's my purpose in life?
It's weird to think about it. ^^

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Let's start with Saturday.
I have an erratic sleep routine now.
I sleep at 9, wake up at 11.30, talk on MSN till 1 and sleep till 7.
I suppose lying on bed and doing nothing does help you fall into deep slumber.
Anyway, woke up at 7 to do my all time favourite thing.
Haha.
FENCING!
OMG.
It's been like 1 week 3 trainings I'd missed! D:
I feel like I've hibernated for the winter time and just woke up.
It was sooo liberating.
Seriously, I never liked to exercise till I came to Junior College.
Then it was like.

Anyway, I lost to Shuren, but won Shikai and Justin (:

And my hands hurt now.
So I shall just skip all the way to afternoon.
And I feel a little... erm... weird at peer tutoring.
Haha, some screw up.
ANYWAY, overall, erm, Saturday was pretty much the same.
Cliché and routine.
Sometimes, I just feel like going bungee jumping,
or doing something so crazy.
I don't like anything to be keeping me down.
I tasted freedom now ( not from parents -> I've always been given so much autonomy. Haha. )
and I'm not going to give it up now.
^^
I'm going to try everything now.
Like everything.
Haha.
I'm not going to keep myself clamped down to whatever life wants me to follow.
No one scares me.
Trust me on that.
I may be stunned.
But I'm definitely NOT scared of you.
For I'm even more scared of something else even more.

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I envision myself.
Dying.
Haha, so pessimistic right?
But I must say I do think of the worst case scenarios.
That's me I suppose.
Haha.
^^
Dying may be the best solution sometimes I guess.
When you get depressed.
And when all looks bleak.
But when in JC,
the only thing you can ever be depressed about - Relationships.
End of story.

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Anyway, Sunday was awesome!

^^

Met with Jun Hoe.

And we sorta went to watch the Last Song.

FYI: It’s damn nice.

So much better than Dear John.

They only kissed like 8 times in the whole movie.

And Miley’s nasal voice pissed me off only at the start.

But they acted quite well.

Haha.

At least I enjoyed the movie.

Or rather criticising Miley at some parts of the show.

Haha.

Anyway, then we went to Bugis.

And we were looking around for something which we wanted to buy.

Haha, we just couldn’t find it.

Can’t find it in Somerset too.

Can’t find it in Ion too!

Gosh.

But it’s okay.

‘Cos we treated ourselves to a very very nice meal.

At Xin Wang Cafe.

It was delicious.

Oh man.

I am now dreaming of their curry chicken and mango ice.

I want to go there again!!!

So I really enjoyed the company of Jun Hoe and stuff.

And we need to get our stuff the next time we go there!!

^^

Thanks! <3>

Now, this is where everything gets serious.

*Serious lights*
*Serious music*
*Serious people*
*Serious setting*
*Serious atmosphere*
* Censored *
Thanks to Brian, who thinks I shouldn't act on impulse.
But the day will still come.
In like tomorrow.
XD

Smile and be happy
'Cos life's too short to be sad!
(There's seriously nothing to be sad! You aren't in my predicament!)

Adios!
Shawn.

Friday, May 21, 2010

I have a complex thinking system.
That makes me confused.
And makes me confusing to understand too.
I'm not a passive person.
I don't wait for things to happen.
I create those things.
Anyway I'm getting a little confused.
You deleted me from facebook and msn and left me hanging there.
It was unfortunate that you didn't accept the friendship at that time.
'Cos I was really looking forward to looking for people from primary school.
Like Joseph and Fabian.
It would be gratifying.
Now it's really awkward.
I don't dare to approach you anymore.
Although I see you quite often around school.
You deleted me from msn for the fact that I was 'incorrigible'.
But then you said it was due to me saying something on the bus.
So what was it?
I'm confused.
I still want the friendship though.
Just don't know if its time, and whether your anger has been quelled or not.
And I really hope that it has been.
I'm keeping the faith.
I hope you will just throw the past away, and look forward to the future.
I'm just waiting for that day to arrive.
I sat at the library,
and comatosed for 1 hour.
Thinking and daydreaming.
Well, it was quite satisfying.
And relaxing.
Sorted out my thoughts.
It has been a very interesting day today.
I don't really know what to expect.
Since yesterday when I knew people were badmouthing me.
Behind my back.
I didn't know who to trust already.
'Cos my friend from VJ who told me that told me that I made the wrong decision.
To tell my classmates about it.
She said I was too naive.
Easily trusting.
After her reasoning with me, I thought she made sense.
I don't know who will be there for me and who was there to look at my demise.
I don't know who is the good, and who is the evil.
:/
So I went to school,
trying to expect the unexpected.
Which of course didn't happen.
Today was nothing more than a cliche day.
Other than the fact that I spoke in a softer-than-usual voice.
In the morning.
Sore throat.
Anyway, I became less of an irritant in the morning.
And I managed to stay awake for most of the lessons.
Which was a new first.
Since I'm falling asleep in some lessons now.
:/
Anyway, Mrs Pow's sarcasm has reached a new high.
She's was like "Luckily, back at home in Singapore"
Then she started making sampan rowing actions.
Haha.
GP lesson's fun now.
Enjoyable.
But except for the AQ parts though.
Boring, boring and nothing but sheer boredom.
PW's GPP's approved!
This means there's more work to be done.
:O.
And Maths lecture - Well, don't get me started on it.
It was kinda boring.
The lecture theatre is very unconducive.
Can't absorb anything,
and my eyes start to open and close in a regular fashion.
Haha.
Really really bored during Maths.
(And econs!)

Thursday, May 20, 2010

I should have seen this coming.
Walls have ears,
And shoes have tongues.
Some people are just born like that.
Gossip mongers.
What can I do?
You guys can say anything you want.
I will know anyway,
So why not just tell me straight in the face?
You don't even know me,
Who are you to criticise me?
You have absolutely no shame at all.
You can say whatever you want.
I know some people have been spreading something about me.
And it's not just in school.
Other people from other schools' seemed to be very interested in this piece of news as well.
Probably they are just short of something to talk about.
And this seemed to them the most interesting out of everything.
And they decided to make a mockery out of it.
It takes one to know one, you know?
It will bite back.
It will dawn on you that you may be criticised by others behind your back.
Please.
Do not do what you don't want others to do on you.
I don't want to repudiate such childish actions.
Wake up.
You all are already 17 years old.
Are you going to gossip for your entire life?
Then seriously, you need to rethink your life and your aims in life.
Please,
if you have something bad to say about me,
tell me straight in the face and don't be a coward.
I'm keeping my cool right now,
'Cos I'm not going to be angry over some idiotic retards saying such things about me behind my back.
I have a very glamarous history, regardless whether it is in Montfort, Nan Chiau or Catholic High.
Many things to say.
But just shut up,
especially if you are in no position to talk about some things.
My friend told me about such things happening.
From the science faculty.
Wow.
I'm from the arts faculty.
And this kind of news can spread so fast.
Bad news really spread like wildfire, I guess.
I was just too naive to trust some people.
Some people are just too sly and cunning to be trusted.
And I'm too stupid to be unable to recognise them.
It can spread as far as VJ!
This is interesting.
Please, if this is your goal in your miserable and pathetic life,
To build your happiness against someone else's misery,
And to gossip 24/7, 365 days,
then I've nothing to say.

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Woah.
It's 12.05AM now.
Anyway, just want to update this almost deadish like blog.
It's been a long term.
Full of "skirmishes" with many people.
Full of broken friendships.
However, at the same time,
I found new friends.
It's a give-lose situation.
I lose one here, I win one there.
Life's complicated without people having to make it complicated for you.
I guess, I'm the odd one out.
I don't know what I should do now actually.
I know I should study.
But what do I want to achieve?
I don't know.
I'm quite lost actually.
I changed my look.
I don't know, but I suppose I need to change sometimes.
I get a little rigid at times.
I changed quite a lot.
Drifted away from primary and secondary school.
However, there are many things you still don't know about me.
And I can't say it OUT LOUD.
.___.
I'm just too cowardly to do that.
I don't have the guts to say it out here.
Perhaps I'm just too careful.
Is being impulsive the new me now?
Should I or should I not?
There are many ramifications behind some actions which I am about to take.
Someone, please talk me out of it.
Before I say something which I'd regret forever.
I probably wouldn't regret it,
but I would regret SAYING it.
Sianz.
I feel a little weird when people comment on it.
(Unwittingly.)
They can be quite insensitive.
I'm also quite confused with the people involved.
They are different at different ocassions.
Am I making the right choice?
*YAWN*
I feel sleepy now.
I probably should go to sleep,
but it's a long time since I had a dream.
(AKA I haven't had a super duper nice sleep for ages).
In fact, I incurred so much sleep debt
that I think it's kinda impossible to repay them in short periods of time.
I need to know my priorities.
I am mixing around with fire.
But am I going to be wood?
Or am I going to be the water?
I am super confused now.
I am not going to think about this.
And just Sleep.

**Probably will just finish this post in another post, or continue with this.*
Haha, I'm so ironic.
Jun Hoe's talking to me now.
So I'll just update this when he's daoing me.
Anyway, now's the time he's daoing me.
So life's complex enough already.
I don't know what my priorities should be now.
Can't be just studies and friends.
Something's missing from my life.
I just can't put it in place yet what that thing is.
Anyway, when I was at peer tutoring yesterday (or on Tuesday),
I saw Xue Ying and Leonard!
OMG.
So long never see Xue Ying liao.
Kinda miss my secondary four class.
*SOB*
Must have class outing soon!

Smile and be happy
'Cos life's too short to be sad!

Adios!
Shawn.


It's been a long time since I wrote a proper blog post.
So before I get distracted by History and CSE, I shall write one.
Proper.
Blog.
Post.
(:

Monday, May 17, 2010

Today, I went to school.
At unearthly hours.
Feeling well.
Then I began having headache.
And went to the sickbay.
Which was surprisingly nice.
It was cooling, and have like beds to rest on.
Although I slept on the chair instead.
Then Wan Ting came in, and she was in an even worse shape than me.
And we have like a whole bunch of people in class who are sick.
=___=.
Must rest well!
Anyway, missed CSE and Maths today.
Heard that Ms Claire was on a tirade.
First about the cards thing.
Then about the test thing.
And then scold scold and scold.
Woah.

Sunday, May 16, 2010

This is going to be a super short post.
'Cos I just ate my medicine.
(Which my mum had been screaming for me to do for an hour =.=)
Anyway, the medicine is super strong,
Instant KO in 15 minutes.
So I'm like some computer now, 15 minutes to shut down.
Anyway, being sick sucks.
It means that you don't do anything.
Like me.
:/
(Will continue with this post tomorrow. Medicine kicked in liao. *YAWN*)

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Lots of things happened, and I've uploaded the pics on FB.
Tag yourself!
I've decided to just write starting from today.
Today, was Combined Sports Meet.
(: Thought it will be fun.
Contrary to my belief, it was super boring.
On the bright side, it ended real early.
(:
And I find it damn funny when everyone started rushing towards the Milo truck like nobody's business.
Haha.
When the truck came rumbling past, everyone was running towards it.
And Lester was right.
10 minutes later, everyone's wandering around already.
Haha.
And he's very nice today.
He bought bubble tea for me.
:D
That's really rare.
So thanks a plenty!
Then I went to meet her.
:/
She made many promises.
Not sure whether she will fulfill them or not.
Hope she will.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Today's incident just proved the point that our friendship is far from infallible.
You know something?
The incident was just a trigger factor.
I'm petty.
I always take your phone and read your stuff.
So you've proven your point.
I am like that.
Not to mention you and your constant conversation with my enemy.
Thanks a lot.
Just what I needed.
You don't know how upset I was when I heard you say such things.
Don't blame anyone.
You did say that.
I know.
You see, the walls have ears.
Most importantly, the shoes have tongues.
I trusted you.
How was I to trust you when such a scenario arises?
Especially telling what I told you about him to him?
Not a smart move.
PS, he said that you said it was me who said it.
I did say it.
But must you tell him?
I don't like such actions.
Now I'm the 'Mr Bad-Guy'.
I almost teared because of this.
Because I wholeheartedly believed in you.
Because I was a sincere friend.
And this is how you repudiate your sincerity.
I thought we were really best friends.
This is merely a trigger point.
Noticed how our conversations become shorter?
And how it, in the end, became conversations of few words.
In class or on facebook or on msn.
Convenient, isn't it.
No need to accompany Shawn 'cos you have your own clique.
I feel abandoned.
It's like I'm only there when they are not.
It's like you only knew my presence when they are not around.
I feel hurt, you know?
I just don't show it.
Convenient excuse, isn't it?
To exclude me because someone in your clique doesn't like me.
Thanks a lot.
You don't even have little time to spare.
We don't even hang out during breaks.
'Cos you are always with them.
No time for me.
You know yesterday when I bade goodbye to you and your friend,
And your friend just ignored me totally,
And how you laughed as you walk,
I was really upset.
Upset that you can't even stand up for me.
Have I degenerated into nothing but a mere clown?
That's a comforting thought, I guess.
Where am I on your priority list?
Nowhere.
Remember the last time we went for lunch?
You weren't the one who invited me.
Have you even thought about me in the first place?
Just think about it.
I don't care whether 2 of your clique members not like me.
But you?
Serious?
I didn't anticipate that.
I didn't come into this school just to be a substitute to your other friends.
I came to this school to make real and sincere friends.
:(
I don't know how to talk to you now.
You are always with my enemies, or with your clique.
I've now officially been excluded out.
Even when people are evicted out of their home, they received warning letters.
You don't know how much this friendship mean to me.
Evidently a lot more than you.
Where's the respect for friends?
I'm really perplexed.
I know,and sincerely hoped that you have not been badmouthing me behind my back.
I trust you.
Now, apparently, I am the perpetrator for such fallacies.
Didn't you notice you distanced yourself away from me?
The days you talk to me are the times where your real friends aren't around.
I thought there was some progress yesterday.
But obviously, not.
You left immediately for your friends.
We need a time out.
You need to ask yourself: Am I your friend and where am I placed at?
I will reflect on this friendship as well.
(Part 1 of 3)

Monday, May 10, 2010

1. I'm sick and tired of people who are liars. Look at post 137 and tell if you are him/her, tell youself to fuck off from my sight.

2. I'm not feeling well. So stop telling me things I don't want to know. If you backstab me in front of me, I'll gladly accept it. If you backstab me from the back, fuck off too.

3. I'm infuriated that because of my GP, my CSE have to suffer as well. CSE is a content subject, but I got marked down for being english-incompetent. Just because I got a U for GP means that my CSE have to get it too. What the.

4. I hate people who I sms, and then they take eons to reply back. Please have the decency to sms me back within a day.

5. Don't ever dao me. I hate people who just ignore me when I shout at them in front of their freaking faces. These people are the worst of the lot.

This is the part where I've been waiting for to announce.
Look at Chapter 7 Post 124.
I'll post it up soon.
Still waiting for the right time.
After knowing that, please keep it to yourself.

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Saturday, May 8, 2010

Thursday, May 6, 2010

I've learned from my mistake.
I shall not put myself in an awkward position.
I know that this time was the first time, and usually the first time is the worst.
Sometimes you just wish that you didn't make that decision in the first place.
It's like giving a mouse to a cat, and the mouse became carnivorous and devour the cat.
O.o Poor analogy, but you get the main idea of the statement.
There's like no reason for this animosity and hostility between us.
You insisted, I can only play on, 'cos it takes two hands to clap.
Two can play this treacherous game, and it's either I win or you lose.
Good luck.
'Cos you're gonna need it.

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

我想念华文.
所以以华文来写博客.
是前所未有的现象.
不知是否是最后一次呢?

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Who isn't?
It's really tiring now.
What's it?
It = Life.

Monday, May 3, 2010

The tremendous amount of work is overwhelming me.
It's not a lot.
It's just suddenly, my whole organized and systematic schedule just broke down.
It's like a sudden breakdown of my mental state of mind.
Occasionally I will feel calm and serene
Then suddenly I will feel damn stressed.
=___=
Like just now, suddenly I just realized so many things are left undone.
And I was like damn stressed.
Then everything was solved. (Thank goodness!)
Gosh.

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Love is so simple.
"I think you're a hopeless romantic who's discovered that romance is hopeless."
"Dreams do come true. "
- Enchanted <3>
It's damn freaking simplistically beautiful.
Love can be that simple and complicated at the same time!

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Woke up at an unearthly hour of 6.30 this morning.
Which is unheard of on a Sunday Morning!
Gosh.
Then fell asleep again.
And woke up at 6.45.
Then fell asleep again.
And woke up at 7.
(Trying to make this process look lonnnnggg
and succeeded anyway =___=)
Why?
To travel to Northpoint.
And meet my cousin at 8.50.
To go to church.
And her church is at Expo.
O.o
Met her bunch of cell mates.
^___^
Nice people.
The cell leaders are teachers in TJC!
Woah.
I got the biggest shock of my life.
It was like some pop-rock concert.
LOL.
People were singing, band playing behind and so on.
So overwhelming.
O___o.
The sermon was quite enlightening.

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I've learned that Freedom is not doing what you like,
BUT doing what is right,
for if you do what you like and crosses the line,
you will be the slave of sin.

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"I tell you the truth, everyone who sins is a slave to sin."
"Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free." - John 8:32 (NIV)

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I've learned to set myself free from the chains of unhappiness.
And the power of Love.
Have faith through love - Love through the heart, the head and most importantly, the hands.
Greatness is how and what you (and God - For believers) define it to be.

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I prayed.
For my family.
For my friends.
For my loved ones.
And for him. (Haha, which is weird, 'cos his name suddenly just popped out of nowhere).
And my cousin prayed for me. ^___^
It was pretty heartwarming, especially when people around me welcomed me for going to church for the first time.
(And I did enjoy it quite a bit! .___~)

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Cell meetings are interesting.
Sharing our thoughts and having intellectual talk.

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Then my cousin, I and her friend Peiying and Zhiyi went to Tampines!
We went to buy Iron Man Tickets. ^___^
At first we told the person 3.15 front row.
(and we checked 3.45 and went back to 3.15)
Then when we left, the person gave us 3.45. Third row.
Oh well.
Anyway, gave us a reason to go Swensons' for ice cream.
And guess what flavour I went for?
No price for guessing it right!
Cookies and Cream was not too bad.
Better than Haagen Daz.
But not as good as Island Creamery leh.
=___=
But I still enjoyed it anyway.
Then we started talking about school life.
O___o

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In the cinema.
I told my cousin and her friend about me.
Her friend understood my not-that-obvious clue immediately.
She took like 5 minutes =___=.
And she was quite shocked after that.
But then she wrote a message to me.
" You and the rest of the cousins are the best I've ever met."
^O^
So grateful for having such awesome cousins!

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Iron Man was damn good.
The storyline, acting and everything was just damn nice.
I just love how the story flowed.
And like all the explosive and thrilling scenes.
That was really good.
I don't mind watching it again!
Totally.
^___^
Shall not spoil it for you guys.
Although the good prevails.
(That is. Like so expected.)

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It's been a good day!
First time in church, then Iron Man, and cookies and cream ice cream!

Smile and be happy,
'Cos life's too short to be sad!

Adios!
Shawn.
.___~

Saturday, May 1, 2010

FREEDOM.
I want freedom from the upredictabilities of life.
From the stress-inducing problems of life.
I take consolation in my life that I have
(1) loving grandparents and parents
(2) a sister (such that life's not that bored!)
(3) good friends (in terms of quality, not quantity).
I don't have much friends actually.
I choose them prudently.
I know how to differentiate
Between the good and the evil.
Between the good and the bad.
^O^.



Feel so envious, seeing my parents going to M'sia tomorrow.
Means I'm free!
For the next three days.
That's just needed.
I'm so tired after the five days of school.
Sleeping 4 (at most 5) hours a day.
Not to mention PE.
[Which is damn tiring.
Boringly tiring, physically tiring and mentally tiring.]
And Fencing. [<3]>

What I hate about people.
(Random, but I though, must as well just write it out)

(1) Smokers
Why kill people around you together with you?
It's just super inconsiderate.

(2) Drunkards.
Why be drunk and kill yourself?
Especially when you drive.
Totally Inconsiderate.

(3) Impressionable youths.
Why be so stupid and be so easily influenced?
It's dumb.
Seriously.
Only be impressionable at the positive points of people.

(4) Bimbos
Because besides a high and irritating pitched voice, they have nothing else?
Enough said.

(5) Liars.
Because they lie.

(6) Hypocrites.
They act in one way in front of you, and another behind you.
They may seem nice to you as a facade.
At the back, they may just back stab you.
Ridiculous people they can be.

(7) Leachers.
These people are the worst ones among the lot.
They come to you when your results are good,
leave to another person when your results aren't as good,
and then come back again when your results are good.

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I've nothing to update for today.
Nothing interesting happened.
Just that during CT session,
I finally see the horrifying teacher
who makes you remember the syllabuses/anything-which-is-on-her-hands
if you arrive late
sleep
etc.
=.=
It was nerve wrecking to be in the Auditorium on Friday.
Gosh.

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At night, went to VJC with Leonard to catch Jerome's debut on stage.
And gosh were we lost.
We took the Circle Line to Paya Lebar (To Sally Tan's advice).
And then took some random bus.
(After searching for a bus stop for 10 minutes).
Then stopped at Victoria School.
And then walked from VS to some Bedok place.
Then went around asking for directions to VJ.
ZZZ.
Took us 1 1/2 hours to reach there in the end.

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Watched VJC's SYF play.
Gosh.
"I have no mouth and I must scream".
All the masked people were just creepy (and acted very well!)
And there was this guy who resulted in Cannibalism in the end.
All the manipulations, delusions, misinterpretations and everything.
But unfortunately I didn't enjoy it.
The sound system in VJC PT was terrible (on the second floor).
I could only hear the background music.
And nothing from the stage, besides the stomping of the masked men
Which shocked me out of my wits
and whatever me not.
So I didn't really like it in the end
.___#

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Then MJC's SYF Piece came up.
"Seasons 318"
The cheerful music, lively colours of the props showed
An obvious difference between MJ's and VJ's SYF pieces.
I enjoyed this tremendously.
The acting was great.
The storyline was great.
After the play, I probably understood the point of "Live every moment of your life to the fullest".
No one's condemned.
It's just how you treat yourself, for sadness is inflicted on yourself by you.
And how courage is the anticipation of love.
How simple thoughts can allow one to keep a positive outlook.
.___~
Feels great after watching this play.

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Then came Jerome!
And his role as the prince in the musical Cinderella.
It's pretty vulgar at times :/
And the music is a little weird sometimes.
But the atmosphere was great in the theatre.
It was vibrantly humourous.
So I sorta enjoyed it.
Except for the fact that I slept for a little while in the midst of the play. :/
Met two VJ IP students sitting next to me.
And enjoyed the conversation with them.
^O^

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Then the drama ended.
At 11.
I was dead tired by then.
Took a photo with Jerome, and went off to catch the last bus.
43 came.
Took it with Leonard.
Then slept on the bus.
And slept to Punggol!
Gah~
It was like 12.30 by then!
The MRT was closed,
and the bus station was quiet.
Except for the group of workers sitting there,
chit chatting in Tamil.
It was damn weird.
Me,
in school uniform,
at 12.30 am,
looking damn tired,
waiting at the bus interchange.
Then took the bus from Punggol to Sengkang.
Took me 1/2 hour to reach there.
And slept on the bus again.
=___=

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Reached home at 1.
Finally.
Slept at 2.
Have to wake up at 7.
No breakfast, since parents are going to Malaysia at 4.
Tomorrow's going to be a rough day.

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Smile and be happy!
'Cos life's too short to be sad.

Adios!
.___~
Shawn.

a new start to a new beginning.

Shawn Teo
17
2000 to 2001
Montfort Junior School
1F, 2HH

2003 to 2005
Nan Chiau Primary School
3G, 4C, 5A, 6A

2006 to 2009
Catholic High School
1-5, 2-5, 3-2, 4-2

2010 to 2011
Hwa Chong Institution
10A11

08-06-1993
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philosophy

“Whenever you're in conflict with someone, there is one factor that can make the difference between damaging your relationship and deepening it. That factor is attitude. ”

wishes

10A11 - the best in anything we do!
To make more friends and widen my social circle
To be a teacher
To cut down my weight to 70kg and below.
To get Silver for NAPFA in 2011 (Not this year!) and so much more!

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