The best way to recuperate from extreme depression, sadness and emo-ness? To accept who I am. Some people asked: Why tell people? My answer in the past? *Silence befalls* My answer now? It's part of accepting myself for who I am. If I don't accept me, Why would I expect people to accept me for who I am, Right? I do mind people saying this behind my back. Unwary ears could have heard it. Walls have ears. I don't mind. However, I'd rather tell them face-to-face. I don't publicize it. Not on this blog, that is. Like what Ms Kumar said to me. Took some people quite long to get accustomed to it. I must say my class was receptive to it. I'm not a SBW because of this. I don't betray myself.
Honestly, I know that it's just not the norm! But it's me. I'm okay now, if that's what people want to know. Over. Over. _________. Totally. Fine, who am I lying? maybe 20%. But who cares now. I need to busy myself with stuff everyday. Make sure that I do not revert back to my own ways. It won't happen, I hope. I'm determined to find that thing which I yearn. But, cookies and cream ice cream will suffice. This is the third part of CHANGE. A few more parts, and I'll be a new and revived man. I must prove I'm not a loser. Like _________. As similar as it is, differences are plenty. When I was talking to Ms Kumar about this, She totally enlightened me. It's not worth it. It's not worth my time. No more a burden of my life. Washed out of my system. This will still take a little longer, but I'm on my way. --- End of my tasteless conjecture. ---
Today, (or rather yesterday, since it's tomorrow already) In the morning. We, or rather I, saw a frightening scene. A teacher fainted. Gosh. People were crowding around. Students were looking on. Paramedics and students administering proper SOP. This scene is so.. weirdly familiar. Reminded me of me fainting in front of 100 people. So malu. The experience's weird. First, you'll see white and black stuff floating in front of your eyes. Then, you'll be swaying front and back. Then you'll just fall. A split second of consciousness before you hit the ground. Then, your hand will move up - a knee-jerk reaction. So the scene was eerie. Anyway, after the big hoo-hah, lessons resumed. Nothing really interesting happened though. Although PE was great. I can run without stopping! :O Amazing to me and only me. :) Ms Claire didn't come today though. 3 hours break! :) Which was boring. Went for fencing. <3> :) Hope I can do better. Yuan Zi's last day. :( Anyway, reached home, finished work and slept. Thanks to Xiao You, Min Hui, Brian and Hamin for the awesome history project done! (:
--- More work stops me from going to places I am trying not to go to. And stopping me from doing things I am trying not to do. Which is a good thing. (: I'm ending here *WITH A BIG SMILE* :D
Smile and be happy! 'Cos life's too short to be sad.
Adios! Shawn
♥ angel&devil. 4/21/2010 10:22:00 PM
a new start to a new beginning.
Shawn Teo
17 2000 to 2001 Montfort Junior School 1F, 2HH
2003 to 2005 Nan Chiau Primary School 3G, 4C, 5A, 6A
2006 to 2009 Catholic High School 1-5, 2-5, 3-2, 4-2
2010 to 2011 Hwa Chong Institution 10A11
08-06-1993
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philosophy
“Whenever you're in conflict with someone, there is one factor that can make the difference between damaging your relationship and deepening it. That factor is attitude. ”
wishes
10A11 - the best in anything we do!
To make more friends and widen my social circle
To be a teacher
To cut down my weight to 70kg and below.
To get Silver for NAPFA in 2011 (Not this year!)
and so much more!
