Monday, April 5, 2010

If I could.
Become invisible.
It'll be great.
'Cos I just want to fade in the background.
Not be seen.
And be near you.

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I can fly.
'Cos when I see you,
my heart flutters violently.
My mind becomes haywired.
And I feel like I'm flying up
to Cloud Nine.

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It's difficult to consistently update my blog.
It's difficult to keep traffic up.
It's difficult to keep myself awake.
It's difficult to keep myself motivated.
It's difficult to live.

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Why must life be so difficult?
I'm really perplexed.
In every sense of the word.
Friendship.
The most ambivalent word in the entire universe.
People define it differently.
Who are my friends?
No One?
Or Everyone?
Hope it's the second case.
Why must friendship be equated to a future?
Why can't we seize friendship at this very moment?
Does friendship lasts an eternity?
Or does it come-and-go?
It was damn weird for me to fill up the form just now.
I know they are my friends.
But I also know there will be lots of obstacles if we do work together.
Don't blame me. ):
I treasure friendship a lot.
Although I may not show it.
Although I may 'suan' you many times.
Although I may ignore you.
This is because I know YOU WON'T MIND.
Right?
I won't mind if these happened to me.
I don't keep grudges.
I don't have much friends.
Perhaps as compared to the many people in school.
That's why every friendship is as valuable as diamonds are to ladies.

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I'm really tired now.
Sorry if I peeved you off.
Sorry.
I know you all've heard this many times.
Really tired.
Imaginging sleeping at 12am and waking up at 5.30am.
5 1/2 hours of sleep.
But I don't feel like sleeping at 12am.
I feel energetic.
I feel dead when I'm in school.
Although I look energetic.
I'm listless during Maths.
I'm comatosing during Economics.
I'm sleeping behind a piece of paper during CSE.
I need fast paced music to keep me awake.
And probably a thousand sweets for sugar rush.
Gah.
Can't even keep eyes open.
It's weird because it's only MONDAY.
How am I going to survive the entire week?
Let alone year?
I am almost at breaking point?
I think.
Inside me, lays a foundation.
A foundation of stress.
It's weird
'Cos it's not because of studies.
More like the lack of time to SLEEP.
Can't really sleep when I want to.
Like now.
Feel so energised.
(:
I want to sleep, but I can't.
Anyway, I dejavued twice today.
How weird.
It was like this uncanny feeling.
That I've been to the place before.
Yikes!

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It rained today.
Felt like just running in the rain.
It will feel great.
Mind's going all cuckoo now.
I WANT TO SLEEP! BUT I CAN'T.
I SHALL LIE ON BED AND THINK OF THE STARS AND MOONS.
Thinking of things which are impossible to achieve.
):
Want to eat ice cream!
Cookies and Cream!
(:

I must think of happy stuff.
And Smile
'Cos life's too short to be sad.

Adios!
Shawn.

♥ angel&devil.
4/05/2010 10:37:00 PM

a new start to a new beginning.

Shawn Teo
17
2000 to 2001
Montfort Junior School
1F, 2HH

2003 to 2005
Nan Chiau Primary School
3G, 4C, 5A, 6A

2006 to 2009
Catholic High School
1-5, 2-5, 3-2, 4-2

2010 to 2011
Hwa Chong Institution
10A11

08-06-1993
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philosophy

“Whenever you're in conflict with someone, there is one factor that can make the difference between damaging your relationship and deepening it. That factor is attitude. ”

wishes

10A11 - the best in anything we do!
To make more friends and widen my social circle
To be a teacher
To cut down my weight to 70kg and below.
To get Silver for NAPFA in 2011 (Not this year!) and so much more!

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credits.

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