Gah. Post 89. This would mean 20 odd posts from the Incident already. The Incident. It's hard to forget it!!! I'm turning cranky because of it!!! Two possibilities: 1. You don't want to lead me on. 2. You are just someone who is a SBW/Jerk. So both are extreme thoughts. I hope it's really 1! ARGH. It's difficult to NOT think about you. Because you're so PROMINENT. You appear when within 1km of my viewpoint. HOW CAN THIS HAPPEN? I'm losing sight of my goal. I'm losing sight of my aim. I'm losing my mental strength. I'm forgetting the real reason why I wanted to come in HC. Is it worth it for you?? I wish to say no. But it's difficult!
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I'm going to try one last time. I'm resolved to do it. Make a conclusion to this draggy story. No point dragging my feet on and on for the same matter. And runing my life. My future for it.
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People who knows what's happening. I don't mind if you tell anyone. Seriously. Really don't mind. I am who I am. What you say won't affect me in any way. But please phrase it prudently. More than 3 words to the least. I'm miserable within me. I've been warned. This route is going to be the rockiest one I've ever taken. I am ready.
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I'm going to confess. To you. (If YOU are the one reading this) YOU. YOU. YOU. YOU. YOU. It's just the question: When? Soon! If it doesn't work out, I'll pack my bags and leave for Alaska and just die there alone, folornly. Just joking. But if it doesn't work out, I'll change totally. For the good/bad? I don't know. That's the fun part of our lifes isn't it? How fun. I'm really enjoying myself now. *Note the sarcasm dripping from my mouth* I know probably some people are INFURIATED with my mood swings. For that I AM SORRY. I swear it's going to end. :( SORRY. from the bottomest pit of my heart. I've been disillusioned by the realities of life. SORRY. You know this is from my heart, because I rarely apologise. Please don't choose this period to ditch me in the lurch. It's really the most DIFFICULT time of my ENTIRE 16 years of life. I've never experienced such infatuations before. SERIOUSLY. And to those whose acceptance I so gladly appreciate, THANKS.The list is inexhaustive, but I'll name a few. Thanks to Joseph Wong. - MJS/CHS peeps. Thanks to Xuan Ming, Roy Goh and Jun Hoe. - CHS peeps. Thanks to Huier. - NCPS peeps. Thanks to Ms Kumar. Thanks to 10A11. Thanks to OG37. THANKS. THANKS. THANKS. No amount of THANKS is enough. But THANKS. From the heart. This is a part of the heart rarely reached within me. Thanks for your LISTENING EAR. Thanks for your OPEN MINDSET. Thanks for your EMPATHETIC HEART. Thanks for your WARM SMILES. Thanks for your UNDERSTANDING WORDS. Thanks for being YOU. Thanks for being MY FRIEND.
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Sorry for being such a jerk the entire week. Sorry for being myself the past week. Sorry to you.
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I know I've SINNED. Sorry. But this is a RISK I'm willing to take. Sorry to those who CONDONE such things. I cannot HIDE anymore. Such a MISERABLE life. Is it worth to gie="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">---
I know I've SINNED. Sorry. But this is a RISK I'm willing to take. Sorry to those who CONDONE such things. I cannot HIDE anymore. Such a MISERABLE life. Is it worth to give up my freedom for speech? A resounding YES. I've diverted ALL MY ENERGY to other activities but thinking of you. But I'm TIRED. I'm LETHARGIC. I'm DRAINED. I don't have any energy anymore. I don't have any energy to MUSTER ANY ENERGY now. I don't have any MOTIVATION. I don't have any INSPIRATION. I feel like a loser now. I ALWAYS TELL PEOPLE to think of happy THINGS. But I just CONTRADICTED MYSELF. I'll TALK TO YOU. But PLEASE talk to me.
PLEASE. I'M BEGGING YOU. I'M PLEADING TO YOU. PLEASE.
I wish to smile like before. Before I met you. But I know that It's because of you that I smiled.
Adios. Shawn
♥ angel&devil. 3/30/2010 06:39:00 PM
a new start to a new beginning.
Shawn Teo
17 2000 to 2001 Montfort Junior School 1F, 2HH
2003 to 2005 Nan Chiau Primary School 3G, 4C, 5A, 6A
2006 to 2009 Catholic High School 1-5, 2-5, 3-2, 4-2
2010 to 2011 Hwa Chong Institution 10A11
08-06-1993
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philosophy
“Whenever you're in conflict with someone, there is one factor that can make the difference between damaging your relationship and deepening it. That factor is attitude. ”
wishes
10A11 - the best in anything we do!
To make more friends and widen my social circle
To be a teacher
To cut down my weight to 70kg and below.
To get Silver for NAPFA in 2011 (Not this year!)
and so much more!
